Im a fun lovely easy going person.
I don't really worry about the future and rather worry about today cause tomorrow will look after itself.
I believe in Karma what you put in you get out.
(see-saw)
Nuf Said.. :P
Though out my life I’ve always tried to enjoy ever situation, milking every opportunity to have fun and engage with others as well as myself. This video is about those times where I can blend into any environment or social group. My willingness to remain open-minded has allowed me to attract all sorts of randomness. 5 people this is me because I am him and him is me so take a look C :P
_life.speed.02 : Flashes of life
Another one of my favourate past times is taking random photos on a daily basis, ‘flashes of life’ contains over 2000 snaps of my life (all taken with my cellphone) of 2008... It’s all in my head, displayed at random you might get a glimpse of what really goes on in my mind.
I was running after this chaos and I stumbled upon “Quantum theory”…
Quantum theory in a nutshell is the study of the physics of the really small. Atoms or matter are made up of electrons, the understanding of electrons has made great advances in technology and telecommunications. The physical of the Quantum world is uncertain, Quantum theories core states that electrons are made up of waves and particles, the thought of this means it could be both or one or the other, this uncertainty creates randomness as Einstein quoted “I cannot believe that God plays dice with the universe?”
The nature of an electron will answer both to being an electron or a particle. “If you ask it a particle question, it will give you a particle answer”. “If you ask it a wave question, it will give you a wave answer”.
Quantum theory in short is a very cloudy world of unexplained principles, this offers a possibility of randomness, and the outcome of Quantum theory is dependent on chance.
The basic idea of Quantum theory has increased the gravitational pull of my concept and I’ve decided to use a combination of 3 concepts or theories to formulate the back-bone for my journey.
With chaos as my driver and quantum theory as my right hand man I’ve explored, documented, researched, filmed, played, searched, thought, reflected and designed x5 videos with regard to order of frequency (things I do often) and allowed a chance for randomness to attract. There is a complete synergy of randomness and I’ve started each video with no clear goal or end point in mind but rather working towards it as I go along.
I’ve found it people and it makes so much sense! I’ve found the answer. I know why I couldn’t get out of the rutt! It’s the ‘law of attraction.’ :P Some might argue that is a lot of bullshit ^^.) It won’t help if one is a mindless zombie and expects everything to come to them with the lack of application. I don’t want to get religious but it could be said that God created the universe or he is the universe so we are a part of him and completely he makes us all. Everyone is welcome to their own beliefs and I would love to hear your points of view on the matter so I can engage from many perspectives. I will say this and I strongly urge anyone and everyone to find those things that make you happy, search and find things that ring true in your heart and consciousness, that bring joy to your soul and where you find peace. Don’t let others dishearten you and what you believe in. Give it your all and stand by positive truths. I was trying so hard to put it away and being so negative that I was unknowing attracting negative feelings… Radiating negative energy and thus attracting it. It’s such a simple concept that is so true and speaks so much truth, when I think about it it’s so obvious. It’s been the answer to so many things in my life. I’ve always tried to be a positive person that looks on the brighter side of life, I hate conflict and would rather defuse a negative situation.
There’s so much good to go around… But one might say that there has to be a balance. That everything in life has a balance: Day < > Night Good < > Evil High pressure < > Low pressure Rain < > Evaporation Hot < > Cold Male < > Female Light < > Dark
Energy can’t be created or destroyed and always recycles itself. I believe that ‘evil never prevails’ there might be a balance but it doesn’t mean there has to be a balance of good and evil things in the world. I base my belief on this.
As human beings we are confined to the belief that everything comes from something. There’s the creator and the apprentice, (I believe that one of the reasons why people find it hard to believe in God because he was just there, no-one created him.)
This journey has to start somewhere and it starts with defining myself and finding out who and am and what matters to me (thoughts, beliefs, ideologies, ect.)
I want to start with the places I’ve lived and see where I go from there. A journey is from point A. to point B.
but there’s no need to say that there can be points in-between (a1,a2,a3,a4) or that they journey has no ending (never ending story)or that the end point is ones death.
It depends what the journey is about, this one is to find a star how ever long it might take.
dont know really. It takes a lifetime 2 define ones self. Go about my dayly business. I believe in the see-saw
'Wat ever suit yourself'
I suite myself quiet nicely thank u.
Wat u believe in?
'Who are u?'
Dude wat do u mean by who? Wat do i look like? Where do i live? Wat do i do? Articulate urself u being very vage. I am who i say i am. Cause i am me and he is i.
'Wat the fuck'
Well at least that makes 2 of us Im a pc junky. Haha. Rather ironic that u ask who iam and the whole screen is red. Well almost red, enough said?
'fuck u then'
Kinda get the feeling that i cant b read. Rather leave it instead. Nice mature answer, Ivan bump u the same dude that pmed me on fb aint u? It all makes sense, The small bubble float 2 the surface,...pop
'Wat'
'u are realy mad'
In other words its all irralevent. Wat i say, mxiting with no delay. Mad is good. Im not a sheep or a mindless soul. U ask who i am, i try explain but its all in vein. All u can say if wat the fuck and im mad, Really quiet sad. Let me poss something 2 u, Who are u that asks who am i. I know u know me and trying 2 dig. Be a cig, i got a mig.
'Wat ever'
'Wat ever'
Haha. Scroll up and check it out, u've said nothing at all...
'Wat do u do?'
Clearly u arent standing tall Wat do u want from me? Its not clear 2 c.
'fuck al'
Haha Im gona drop some names. Starting with nat. Y did u do that? Know its u. Why do u stew.
'Wat?'
No, wrong answer thats not hot. Leave the dot. U ask who i am and ive told u by wat i say. Im sick of the sound of my own voice. U tell me something, else im off. Its ur choice. The offer stands 4 im geting swolen glands.
In math chaos theory states that one little effect that has been changed in an initial state or an event that takes place can create a totally different outcome, setting off a chain reaction or popularly known as a butterfly effect.
Examples of chaos theory are more common with elements that have no self-will such as weather or climate.
There are some many factors that might effect the weather from water currents, to humans polluting the environment to an urban city absorbing heat from the sun. There so many factors involved as seen as chaos, a computer system can never measure chaos theory for it is governed by rules and can never simulate chance.
For example, the source of a tornado could start with a butterfly flapping it’s wings. Weather doesn’t have a mind of it’s own and rather acts on scientific principles, chaos theories outcomes can be calculated if all variables are known or are close to the source. The process that happens or is experience along the way is conceded to be random or chaos.
Here’s an example of a Dynamic Geomag: Choas Thoery simulation:
The explanation I have given isn’t a complete scientific summary on chaos theory but rather my personal understanding of it. I want to revolve around this concept for the duration of journey (as I believe in chance) and have it at the core of my process.
Keeping my self-will very neutral and only gathering direction as I voyage towards this star that I’m trying to find that is me. My creative process has always had a sense of randomness in it and I’ve stumbled upon ideas through process that have completely changed the end result, making it quiet accidental.
I’m taking it easy at home. Enjoying it. All here by myself, not distractions. Good 4 journey as I need 2 find out what I’m all about Its what this project is all about and what I need 2 express I’ve scraped all the work that I’ve done 4 journey
....and started again as the concrete in the mixer has set. Need 2 start again. :)
I’m gonna make it quiet random Going with chaos theory or accidental design and creative though. I start with birth.
Anything that catches my interest or I’m inspired by I’ll collect.
Sparking off ideas and a trail of thought. Progressively going through the years and the big spark was when I was 11 and got my own pc. (Even if that has any relevance at all)
That’s when I realized I was a creative being. As I don’t like drawing or fine art, rather pc generated Even till the age of 17 loved watching cartoons.
The project is about creating a narrative 2 my life and creativity.
Well it actually isn’t.
It’s about a journey so that’s my journey.
A creative one. And a journey 4 me flows, It’s never ending. ;)
The never ending story :D So the x5 videos I’m making with flow into each other, but naturally.
Now here’s an example:
That video I made of all the houses I stayed in ends with me holding my cellphone in-front of the camera, That’s the end of video one.
Number 2 starts the by zooming into the cellphone screen typing an SMS or the message getting set via wireless, there’s motion and flow but at the same time its quiet random, chaos in a sense, “chaos theory :P”
To voyage to a star I need to make sure that I have no extra baggage, insecurities or problems So I’m going to get this all off my chest.
I think I’ve ended up in the place I’m in for a few reasons I’m a sensitive person that takes everything way tooo seriously, At the end of the day no-one really cares…
Ironically I’m a critical person but I don’t take criticism very well.
I battle to ask for help.
All though I’m creative I’ve also got a very technical, logical mind.
I’m a perfectionist that wants everything perfect the 1’st time so I battle to scratch around in a creative playground where My possibilities could be endless instead I procrastinate trying to make it prefect when nothing is perfect.
