As human beings we are confined to the belief that everything comes from something.
There’s the creator and the apprentice,
(I believe that one of the reasons why people find it hard to believe in God because he was just there, no-one created him.)
This journey has to start somewhere and it starts with defining myself
and finding out who and am and what matters to me
(thoughts, beliefs, ideologies, ect.)
I want to start with the places I’ve lived and see where I go from there.
A journey is from point A. to point B.
but there’s no need to say that there can be points in-between
(a1,a2,a3,a4) or that they journey has no ending
(never ending story)or that the end point is ones death.
It depends what the journey is about, this one is to find a star how ever long it might take.
Time to put it all on the table.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Who are you in this chaos?
'Who are u?'
dont know really.
It takes a lifetime 2 define ones self.
Go about my dayly business.
I believe in the see-saw
'Wat ever suit yourself'
I suite myself quiet nicely thank u.
Wat u believe in?
'Who are u?'
Dude wat do u mean by who?
Wat do i look like?
Where do i live?
Wat do i do?
Articulate urself u being very vage.
I am who i say i am.
Cause i am me and he is i.
'Wat the fuck'
Well at least that makes 2 of us
Im a pc junky.
Haha.
Rather ironic that u ask who iam and the whole screen is red.
Well almost red, enough said?
'fuck u then'
Kinda get the feeling that i cant b read.
Rather leave it instead.
Nice mature answer,
Ivan bump u the same dude that pmed me on fb aint u?
It all makes sense,
The small bubble float 2 the surface,...pop
'Wat'
'u are realy mad'
In other words its all irralevent.
Wat i say, mxiting with no delay.
Mad is good. Im not a sheep or a mindless soul.
U ask who i am, i try explain but its all in vein.
All u can say if wat the fuck and im mad,
Really quiet sad.
Let me poss something 2 u,
Who are u that asks who am i.
I know u know me and trying 2 dig.
Be a cig, i got a mig.
'Wat ever'
'Wat ever'
Haha.
Scroll up and check it out, u've said nothing at all...
'Wat do u do?'
Clearly u arent standing tall
Wat do u want from me?
Its not clear 2 c.
'fuck al'
Haha
Im gona drop some names.
Starting with nat.
Y did u do that?
Know its u. Why do u stew.
'Wat?'
No, wrong answer thats not hot.
Leave the dot.
U ask who i am and ive told u by wat i say.
Im sick of the sound of my own voice.
U tell me something, else im off.
Its ur choice.
The offer stands 4 im geting swolen glands.
dont know really.
It takes a lifetime 2 define ones self.
Go about my dayly business.
I believe in the see-saw
'Wat ever suit yourself'
I suite myself quiet nicely thank u.
Wat u believe in?
'Who are u?'
Dude wat do u mean by who?
Wat do i look like?
Where do i live?
Wat do i do?
Articulate urself u being very vage.
I am who i say i am.
Cause i am me and he is i.
'Wat the fuck'
Well at least that makes 2 of us
Im a pc junky.
Haha.
Rather ironic that u ask who iam and the whole screen is red.
Well almost red, enough said?
'fuck u then'
Kinda get the feeling that i cant b read.
Rather leave it instead.
Nice mature answer,
Ivan bump u the same dude that pmed me on fb aint u?
It all makes sense,
The small bubble float 2 the surface,...pop
'Wat'
'u are realy mad'
In other words its all irralevent.
Wat i say, mxiting with no delay.
Mad is good. Im not a sheep or a mindless soul.
U ask who i am, i try explain but its all in vein.
All u can say if wat the fuck and im mad,
Really quiet sad.
Let me poss something 2 u,
Who are u that asks who am i.
I know u know me and trying 2 dig.
Be a cig, i got a mig.
'Wat ever'
'Wat ever'
Haha.
Scroll up and check it out, u've said nothing at all...
'Wat do u do?'
Clearly u arent standing tall
Wat do u want from me?
Its not clear 2 c.
'fuck al'
Haha
Im gona drop some names.
Starting with nat.
Y did u do that?
Know its u. Why do u stew.
'Wat?'
No, wrong answer thats not hot.
Leave the dot.
U ask who i am and ive told u by wat i say.
Im sick of the sound of my own voice.
U tell me something, else im off.
Its ur choice.
The offer stands 4 im geting swolen glands.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Chaos Theory
In math chaos theory states that one little effect that has been changed
in an initial state or an event that takes place can create a totally
different outcome, setting off a chain reaction or popularly known
as a butterfly effect.
Examples of chaos theory are more common with elements that have no
self-will such as weather or climate.
There are some many factors that might effect the weather from
water currents, to humans polluting the environment to an urban city
absorbing heat from the sun.
There so many factors involved as seen as chaos,
a computer system can never measure
chaos theory for it is governed by rules and can never simulate chance.
For example, the source of a tornado could start
with a butterfly flapping it’s wings.
Weather doesn’t have a mind of it’s own and
rather acts on scientific principles,
chaos theories outcomes can be calculated if
all variables are known or are close to the source.
The process that happens or is experience along the way
is conceded to be random or chaos.
Here’s an example of a Dynamic Geomag: Choas Thoery simulation:
The explanation I have given isn’t a complete scientific summary on
chaos theory but rather my personal understanding of it.
I want to revolve around this concept for the duration of journey
(as I believe in chance) and have it at the core of my process.
Keeping my self-will very neutral and only gathering direction as
I voyage towards this star that I’m trying to find that is me.
My creative process has always had a sense of randomness in it
and I’ve stumbled upon ideas through process that have completely
changed the end result, making it quiet accidental.
I’m taking it easy at home.
Enjoying it.
All here by myself, not distractions.
Good 4 journey as I need 2 find out what I’m all about
Its what this project is all about and what I need 2 express
I’ve scraped all the work that I’ve done 4 journey
...old cement...
....and started again as the concrete in the mixer has set.
Need 2 start again. :)
I’m gonna make it quiet random
Going with chaos theory or accidental design and creative though.
I start with birth.
Anything that catches my interest or I’m inspired by I’ll collect.
Sparking off ideas and a trail of thought.
Progressively going through the years and
the big spark was when I was 11 and got my own pc.
(Even if that has any relevance at all)
That’s when I realized I was a creative being.
As I don’t like drawing or fine art, rather pc generated
Even till the age of 17 loved watching cartoons.
The project is about creating a narrative 2 my life and creativity.
Well it actually isn’t.
It’s about a journey so that’s my journey.
A creative one.
And a journey 4 me flows,
It’s never ending. ;)
The never ending story :D
So the x5 videos I’m making with flow into each other,
but naturally.
Now here’s an example:
That video I made of all the houses I stayed in ends
with me holding my cellphone in-front of the camera,
That’s the end of video one.
Number 2 starts the by zooming into the
cellphone screen typing an SMS or
the message getting set via wireless,
there’s motion and flow but at the same time its quiet random,
chaos in a sense, “chaos theory :P”
in an initial state or an event that takes place can create a totally
different outcome, setting off a chain reaction or popularly known
as a butterfly effect.
Examples of chaos theory are more common with elements that have no
self-will such as weather or climate.
There are some many factors that might effect the weather from
water currents, to humans polluting the environment to an urban city
absorbing heat from the sun.
There so many factors involved as seen as chaos,
a computer system can never measure
chaos theory for it is governed by rules and can never simulate chance.
For example, the source of a tornado could start
with a butterfly flapping it’s wings.
Weather doesn’t have a mind of it’s own and
rather acts on scientific principles,
chaos theories outcomes can be calculated if
all variables are known or are close to the source.
The process that happens or is experience along the way
is conceded to be random or chaos.
Here’s an example of a Dynamic Geomag: Choas Thoery simulation:
The explanation I have given isn’t a complete scientific summary on
chaos theory but rather my personal understanding of it.
I want to revolve around this concept for the duration of journey
(as I believe in chance) and have it at the core of my process.
Keeping my self-will very neutral and only gathering direction as
I voyage towards this star that I’m trying to find that is me.
My creative process has always had a sense of randomness in it
and I’ve stumbled upon ideas through process that have completely
changed the end result, making it quiet accidental.
I’m taking it easy at home.
Enjoying it.
All here by myself, not distractions.
Good 4 journey as I need 2 find out what I’m all about
Its what this project is all about and what I need 2 express
I’ve scraped all the work that I’ve done 4 journey
...old cement...
....and started again as the concrete in the mixer has set.
Need 2 start again. :)
I’m gonna make it quiet random
Going with chaos theory or accidental design and creative though.
I start with birth.
Anything that catches my interest or I’m inspired by I’ll collect.
Sparking off ideas and a trail of thought.
Progressively going through the years and
the big spark was when I was 11 and got my own pc.
(Even if that has any relevance at all)
That’s when I realized I was a creative being.
As I don’t like drawing or fine art, rather pc generated
Even till the age of 17 loved watching cartoons.
The project is about creating a narrative 2 my life and creativity.
Well it actually isn’t.
It’s about a journey so that’s my journey.
A creative one.
And a journey 4 me flows,
It’s never ending. ;)
The never ending story :D
So the x5 videos I’m making with flow into each other,
but naturally.
Now here’s an example:
That video I made of all the houses I stayed in ends
with me holding my cellphone in-front of the camera,
That’s the end of video one.
Number 2 starts the by zooming into the
cellphone screen typing an SMS or
the message getting set via wireless,
there’s motion and flow but at the same time its quiet random,
chaos in a sense, “chaos theory :P”
Beneath the surface
To voyage to a star I need to make sure that
I have no extra baggage, insecurities or problems
So I’m going to get this all off my chest.
I think I’ve ended up in the place I’m in for a few reasons
I’m a sensitive person that takes everything way tooo seriously,
At the end of the day no-one really cares…
Ironically I’m a critical person but I don’t take criticism very well.
I battle to ask for help.
All though I’m creative I’ve also got a very technical, logical mind.
I’m a perfectionist that wants everything perfect the 1’st time so
I battle to scratch around in a creative playground where
My possibilities could be endless instead
I procrastinate trying to make it prefect
when nothing is perfect.
Battle to find a starting point…..
I have no extra baggage, insecurities or problems
So I’m going to get this all off my chest.
I think I’ve ended up in the place I’m in for a few reasons
I’m a sensitive person that takes everything way tooo seriously,
At the end of the day no-one really cares…
Ironically I’m a critical person but I don’t take criticism very well.
I battle to ask for help.
All though I’m creative I’ve also got a very technical, logical mind.
I’m a perfectionist that wants everything perfect the 1’st time so
I battle to scratch around in a creative playground where
My possibilities could be endless instead
I procrastinate trying to make it prefect
when nothing is perfect.
Battle to find a starting point…..
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Vega Timeline
1’st Year
I began Vega with a bit of a head start in terms of operations
and the daily routine at Vega as I did imagination lab.
Was quiet random the road running parallel
to the road I was staying in was called. “Alistair” road :P
I really enjoyed my 1’st year at Vega and branched off at the end of the year to pursue
Multi-media as my specialization.
2’nd Year
2007 Marked the start of my multi-media path.
Was a smooth road until I failed to submit one of my assignments,
Never,
Ever again.
A big fat O on one’s mark sheet is no joke.
As the year progressed,
an all consuming void.
A ruff place, a broken heart.
I felt all consumed,
my inspiration drained,
from an emotional death.
I barely scraped through but I made it,
Credit is due but I won’t say to who…..
3’rd Year
I felt free,
I felt uplifted
But not for long,
there’s something missing,
being too blind to see that I was
pushing the needle into my arm.
I decided to let go,
to forget about the consequences and
take a chance.
When I opened the box I don’t like what I saw,
but it was the truth and it hasn’t set me free.
I have lots of doubt about so many things.
There’s only one thing that can set me free
I have to run, walk or crawl with my red flag
to an end goal.
I have nothing set,
only debt within this harden exterior shell.
I’m sick of this place,
I want the world to know
can’t seem to do anything but paste.
Paste
Paste
Paste
“Ctrl+V”
It’s cause of a lack of inspirations,
need to get hard wired, plugged in and up to speed,
drop a few gears to hit the red line,
momentum and torque need to sync in time.
As I wave my flag above my head,
It’s this colour because my soul was dead.
Overall:
Vega has not only thought me how to be creative and think creatively
but the people here have been a source of inspiration for me.
I love meeting, working and connecting with people and
Vega's working environment offers a space for creative beings
to express themselves...
I’d rather sit and listen...
someone that can only hear the sound of
their own voice won’t learn anything.
I believe that everyone is a designer and
we all have creative talent and
we all start designing at some point.
I began Vega with a bit of a head start in terms of operations
and the daily routine at Vega as I did imagination lab.
I stayed about 7km from Vega in Athol Heights.
Was quiet random the road running parallel
to the road I was staying in was called. “Alistair” road :P
I really enjoyed my 1’st year at Vega and branched off at the end of the year to pursue
Multi-media as my specialization.
2’nd Year
2007 Marked the start of my multi-media path.
Was a smooth road until I failed to submit one of my assignments,
Never,
Ever again.
A big fat O on one’s mark sheet is no joke.
As the year progressed,
I
Started
Sliding
Into
A
.Hole.
Started
Sliding
Into
A
.Hole.
an all consuming void.
A ruff place, a broken heart.
I felt all consumed,
my inspiration drained,
from an emotional death.
I barely scraped through but I made it,
Credit is due but I won’t say to who…..
3’rd Year
I felt free,
I felt uplifted
But not for long,
there’s something missing,
being too blind to see that I was
pushing the needle into my arm.
I decided to let go,
to forget about the consequences and
take a chance.
When I opened the box I don’t like what I saw,
but it was the truth and it hasn’t set me free.
I have lots of doubt about so many things.
There’s only one thing that can set me free
I have to run, walk or crawl with my red flag
to an end goal.
I have nothing set,
only debt within this harden exterior shell.
I’m sick of this place,
I want the world to know
can’t seem to do anything but paste.
Paste
Paste
Paste
“Ctrl+V”
It’s cause of a lack of inspirations,
need to get hard wired, plugged in and up to speed,
drop a few gears to hit the red line,
momentum and torque need to sync in time.
As I wave my flag above my head,
It’s this colour because my soul was dead.
Overall:
Vega has not only thought me how to be creative and think creatively
but the people here have been a source of inspiration for me.
I love meeting, working and connecting with people and
Vega's working environment offers a space for creative beings
to express themselves...
I’d rather sit and listen...
someone that can only hear the sound of
their own voice won’t learn anything.
I believe that everyone is a designer and
we all have creative talent and
we all start designing at some point.
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